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... I decided to take the day off today... thinking on my own after crying for the last time my ass off...
What-so-ever I couldn't stop thinking about her... About how stupid I was...
Then my mother asked me if I wanted to go out shopping... I went with her, I needed to go out anyway.
When we arrived at the Wall-Mart, my mother wanted to buy a MP3 kuz hers broke and she wanted a new one
While she was looking around, I went to the headphones tester (like the big ones like Pewds, they are worting more than 200$ omg) But when I put the headphone on my ears, I wasn't even paying attention to the quality... I was only listening to the song... I never heard that song before...
At first I liked it pretty much so my mother asked the guy working there what was the name of the song.
Coming back at home, curiously, (kuz I'm french and bad a listening to lyrics in English) I went to see the lyrics on internet...
It took my right in the fucking feels...
"You got me so wild,
How can I ever deny?
You got me so high,
So high I cannot feel the fire.
And you keep telling me,
Telling me that you'll be sweet.
And you'll never want to leave my side,
As long as I dont break these...
Promises, and they still feel all so wasted on myself!
You got so wild,
Why should I be so surprised?
You got me so high,
Don't you see it in my eyes?
And you keep telling me,
Telling me that you'll be sweet.
And you'll never want to leave my side,
As long as I dont break these...
Promises, and they still feel all so wasted on myself!
They are so wasted on myself..."
I think I got the message right...
www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8kUee…
What-so-ever I couldn't stop thinking about her... About how stupid I was...
Then my mother asked me if I wanted to go out shopping... I went with her, I needed to go out anyway.
When we arrived at the Wall-Mart, my mother wanted to buy a MP3 kuz hers broke and she wanted a new one
While she was looking around, I went to the headphones tester (like the big ones like Pewds, they are worting more than 200$ omg) But when I put the headphone on my ears, I wasn't even paying attention to the quality... I was only listening to the song... I never heard that song before...
At first I liked it pretty much so my mother asked the guy working there what was the name of the song.
Coming back at home, curiously, (kuz I'm french and bad a listening to lyrics in English) I went to see the lyrics on internet...
It took my right in the fucking feels...
"You got me so wild,
How can I ever deny?
You got me so high,
So high I cannot feel the fire.
And you keep telling me,
Telling me that you'll be sweet.
And you'll never want to leave my side,
As long as I dont break these...
Promises, and they still feel all so wasted on myself!
You got so wild,
Why should I be so surprised?
You got me so high,
Don't you see it in my eyes?
And you keep telling me,
Telling me that you'll be sweet.
And you'll never want to leave my side,
As long as I dont break these...
Promises, and they still feel all so wasted on myself!
They are so wasted on myself..."
I think I got the message right...
www.youtube.com/watch?v=h8kUee…
sorry if Im not really online...
anyway it doesn't really look like it bothers anyone
whatever
my mother and step-father went away kuz they are in vacation so I'm alone at home for the entire week
I wasn't on DA for the day for the only reason I decided to play more at Dofus instead of drawing...
it's been more than a month I didn't play it and all I did was drawing, having constantly fights or cold with few people
or just dissapointing others
well for now I'll just be playing alone in my room kuz I need to take my mind away from DA....
if you want to talk to me you are free to send me a message even though I doubt you will
and I dont garanti I will answer as well
because why the heck not
tagged by ~Melocky (https://www.deviantart.com/melocky) I will kill you for this xD
I'm just gonna answer her questions and write the 10 things about me, I dont even care tagging people lol (kuz they will kill me)
10 things about me:
1- I love Italian food (my fav one is spaguetti)
2- I am a cat person is all the way. lol
3- I started falling in love with fictional characters since primary school kuz of all the rejection I suffered from everyone
4- People always think my imagination and creativity are extraordinary but in fact I cant draw/ write if I'm not based on something that already exists
5- I am really sociable if you get to know and be nice with me.
6- wh
VERDICT
Ok so I just came back from the meeting
By the way, I read the comments that I got on my last journal and I thank everyone who showed me support^^
So during the meeting, I tried not to care about my father kuz he was right beside me
I was only focusing over my therapist and nothing else...
today, that was kinda different, I was waiting for him to give me books like last time so I can start looking for interesting careers but instead he sat in a chair and asked me if I had any ideas. Then we talked about my own interests, the fact that I am creative, that I like drawing and stuff, blabla
well I aint talking about all the details
but I fo
(last) meeting with my therapist
I have to go in less than an hour and I'm freacking out...
my father yesterday was like "dont forget you have a meeting with him tomorrow"
me: Yes dad I remember...
Father: so are you gonna work or are you gonna sit there and not doing shit like last time?
Me: .... I'm gonna work...
I retained myself to not scream in his face... What so ever I kept my calm and just answered his question, but he still was able to feel irritation in my voice...
Last time I litteraly broke Under the pressure and had a freacking hard depression crisis or something like that but my father was mad at me kuz I couldn't choose right away a job to study in... k
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